BAYANDA 12 . SBAHLE The feelings are still the same, the memories are still lingering in my head. There’s nothing that’s different, the only difference is that 3 years later, we don’t want anything to do with each other. He looks at me like I’m some disgusting piece of dirt, his stare is not the … Read more
BAYANDA 11 . KATLEGO The last thing I needed on this earth right now is seeing Sipho barge into my office like he owns it, I don’t know what the hell is his problem but he shouldn’t forget that I am not his agemate, he can’t do as he likes in my office. “YOU!!” He … Read more
BAYANDA 10 . (Short, I still have a problem with my eyes guys) BAYANDA I’ve opened up to a stranger, which is something that I never do—I’ve been open about my disability to the parents of the kids I take care of but not like this. She was listening attentively, she didn’t even try to … Read more
BAYANDA 09 . SBAHLE Khanyisile decided to come over at my house this evening because I was messed up when I had to leave Kuhle at the hospital so I couldn’t really meet up with her. I asked to come over instead, leaving my child at the hospital really broke my heart even though the … Read more
BAYANDA 08 . BAYANDA I could have never imagined that one day, Sipho would lay his hands on me—he has told me so many times that he loves me and he wants to see me happy, is this his way of showing me that? I don’t understand anything right now. I’m also not going to … Read more
BAYANDA 07 . KATLEGO Being out of the country after leaving Bayanda was something that I never saw coming—it came as a shock to me when my mother told me that we were moving out of the country permanently. The job she had received required us to move. It felt like a destiny type of … Read more
BAYANDA 06 . SBAHLE To see your own child’s life fading away has to be the most hurtful thing ever. Kuhle has went through so much in her life, I don’t want to lose her so soon. I’m the reason she’s like this, I allowed stress to get in my head and that affected my … Read more
BAYANDA 05 . BAYANDA “Hi, Bayanda.” Katlego says, I feel my heart sinking a bit. Doesn’t he recognize me? he’s greeting me as if he doesn’t know me. But why is my heart telling otherwise?—why do I still have hope? “Hi.” I say, looking down. I don’t want to cry infront of people. I especially … Read more
BAYANDA 04 . BAYANDA “She has had some complications since birth, the doctors weren’t even sure that she’d survive. I was in constant pain throughout my pregnancy because my baby was in an abnormal sac. They ealier said I had a miscarriege but they were mistaken, my child is 3 years old—she’s suffering so much … Read more
BAYANDA 03 . —’14 beautiful years later’— BAYANDA I’ve been making the same wish for 14 years, it doesn’t seem to get fulfilled because I haven’t seen him since that day. He made promises to me, he hasn’t kept them. I’m not angry, I’m hurt—that was the only person outside of my aunt and uncle … Read more