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INSERT 11 SABELO “Damn you, kid!” Austin, my colleague who is like a brother to me exclaims. I look at Astrid and I’m unable to figure out where her emotions and mind are at this moment. On her left side is Michael who looks impressed. “Astrid?” Austin taps her on the shoulder. “Who are you, … Read more

INSERT 11 NOMVULA “Hey, are you okay?” panic cannot be missed in Nontobeko’s voice. I’m sobbing inconsolably and my body is shaking. “Please talk to me,” she begs. She has had to park on the side of the road. What started as a silent tear falling down my cheeks has turned to full blown gut-wrenching … Read more

INSERT 10 SABELO I drive through the cemetery and my heart breaks for all families who lost their loved ones. It hurts even more for the children who buried their parents and it hurts the same for the parents who buried their children. No matter who it snatches first, death leaves behind bleeding hearts. I … Read more

INSERT 9 SABELO I stare at her for a moment and she holds the stare, her eyes begging and her body language screaming with defeat and hope at the same time. Her eyes start to shine with tears, I release a deep sigh. “I have a gun, but it must be dusty wherever it is. … Read more

INSERT 8 One Week Later… SABELO I am back to work today and I honestly couldn’t function. Everything on my desk reminded me of Anele. Her face is everywhere—my desktop screen, my laptop screen, my notebooks, my coffee cup and I can almost hear her laugh in my workspace corridors. I work with 90 percent … Read more

INSERT 7 SABELO Have you ever felt like you are lost in your own home? Have you ever stood in the middle of your own living room and felt like you are standing in a desert—the middle of nowhere? That’s how I’m feeling right now and the silence in the house is too loud. I … Read more

INSERT 6 Three Months Later…. SABELO I had to voluntarily hand myself into a mental institution. It’s a private establishment so they have a fancy word for locking people in here but the main point remains—this is a place for crazy people. I have been here for two months and as much as settling in … Read more

INSERT FIVE OWETHU By the time we get to the private doctor, I’m in tears. My back hurts so much and my fear is losing my baby. I will not survive another loss, I am not one of God’s strongest soldiers and this is the trial I would fail miserable. I am silently praying and … Read more

INSERT FOUR SABELO I don’t know if I’m the one who’s losing it or the people I call in-laws are the ones who should be on their way to the looney-bin. I don’t care what they believe in, I don’t care what culture says, I’m not about to disrespect my wife like that. She could … Read more

INSERT THREE SABELO I wake up with a banging headache that has me finding it hard to peel my eyes open. My forehead feels heavy. I stretch my hand to Anele’s side of the bed and my eyes flutter open when my hand doesn’t feel her. Her side of the bed is still made up, … Read more