Tristan\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cBaby that\u2019s not\u2026\u201d I started, moving toward her instinctively because everything in me needed to be closer to her, needed to touch her and make her\u00a0<\/p>\n
understand.\u00a0<\/p>\n
But she stepped back and the movement stopped me cold, froze me in place like she\u2019d physically pushed me away.\u00a0<\/p>\n
My hands hung uselessly at my sides.\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s not what I meant,\u201d I tried again, looking into her eyes and seeing pain there, seeing hurt that I\u2019d put there with my careless words and my stupid\u00a0<\/p>\n
fears.\u00a0<\/p>\n
She just looked at me and I could see she didn\u2019t believe me, could see the doubt written all over her face.\u00a0<\/p>\n
I turned desperately to Orion and Sarah, silently begging them to help me explain, to tell her that I hadn\u2019t meant it the way it sounded, that calling off the wedding was the last thing I wanted.\u00a0<\/p>\n
But the looks on their faces told me everything I needed to know.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Orion\u2019s expression was carefully neutral but I could see satisfaction in his eyes, could see him thinking that I deserved this, that I\u2019d earned whatever\u00a0<\/p>\n
pain was coming my way.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Sarah wasn\u2019t even trying to hide it, she looked almost pleased to see me squirming, happy to watch me suffer after what I\u2019d said to Athena last night.\u00a0<\/p>\n
They weren\u2019t going to help me.\u00a0<\/p>\n
I was on my own.\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cI said that because I was scared,\u201d I said, turning back to Athena and trying to make her understand. \u2018I was terrified that you\u2019d left because you were done with me, that you\u2019d decided I wasn\u2019t worth the trouble, I wasn\u2019t thinking about calling off the wedding, I was panicking that you already had.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cRight,\u2018 she said, and the flatness in her voice cut deeper than anger would have. \u201cYou were scared.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
She crossed her arms over her chest and I noticed how pale she looked, noticed the dark circles under her eyes that matched mine, noticed that she was wearing the same clothes from last night like she hadn\u2019t slept either.\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u2018Just like you were scared last night when you yelled at me,\u2018 she continued. \u201cWhen you told everyone in that room that you\u2019d rather be dead than have\u00a0<\/p>\n
me save you.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s not what I said,\u201d I protested weakly.\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s exactly what you said,\u201d she shot back, and now I could hear anger creeping into her voice. \u201cYou said you\u2019d rather die than have me risk myself for you, you said it right to my face in front of everyone.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause I was terrified of losing you,\u201d I said, my own voice rising. \u201cBecause the thought of you getting hurt because of me makes me want to tear the world apart.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cNo,\u2018 she said, shaking her head. \u201cYou don\u2019t care about me, you only care about the babies.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
1\/2\u00a0<\/p>\n
11:01 pm GPP P\u00a0<\/p>\n
Chapter 345\u00a0<\/p>\n
The words hit me like a punch to the gut and I felt all the air leave my lungs.\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s not true.\u201d I said, but even to my own cars it sounded unconvincing.\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cIsn\u2019t it?\u201d she asked, taking another step back when I tried to move closer. \u201cEvery word out of your mouth last night was about them, about how I\u2019d put\u00a0<\/p>\n
them at risk, about how I might have affected them with my powers, you didn\u2019t ask if I was okay, you didn\u2019t care if using my healing had hurt me.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
Her voice was getting louder now and I could see tears gathering in her eyes.\u00a0<\/p>\n
All you cared about was whether the babies were fine, whether I\u2019d damaged them somehow by saving your life.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s not fair,\u201d I said, feeling frustration building in my chest. \u201cOf course I care about you,\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cThen why didn\u2019t you show it?\u201d she demanded. \u201cWhy didn\u2019t you thank me for saving you? Why didn\u2019t you hold me and tell me you were glad I was okay? Why was your first instinct to yell at me and tell me I was reckless and stupid?*\u00a0<\/p>\n
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