SERA<\/p>\n
\u00a0<\/p>\n
Today was supposed to be my day. My 29th birthday. Just one more year to 30, an age where many women would begin to question their purpose.<\/p>\n
But I have gifts that make me love every moment, my husband, my daughter\u2026they are my purpose.<\/p>\n
\u00a0<\/p>\n
I was excited to celebrate my birthday with them, but the party was no longer for me; I was practically invisible while guests bustled.<\/p>\n
\u00a0<\/p>\n
I hid in the corner of my own stairs, watching her steal my life. My hands gripped the rail so hard they hurt. The piano music filled our living room, but it wasn\u2019t for me. It was for her. Vivienne\u2019s fingers moved across the keys like she owned them. Like she owned my house.<\/p>\n
\u00a0<\/p>\n
My throat felt tight. Every note hurt.<\/p>\n
\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cAmazing!\u201d The guests praised, forgetting their drinks as they crowded around her red dress. She looked so sure of herself while I felt like nobody could see me in my birthday dress.<\/p>\n
But Darius made it worse. My husband stood by the piano, staring at her hands like they were magic. That hungry look in his eyes\u2014when did he last look at me like that? Our wedding? When Luna was born?<\/p>\n
I put my hand on my chest where it felt like something was stabbing me. The ache spread, turning into something else I wish I didn\u2019t feel.<\/p>\n
\u201cVivienne! You\u2019re so cool!\u201d Luna yelled out. My four-year-old daughter jumped up and down, her pigtails bouncing as she clapped. \u201cCan you teach me? Can you be my\u2014\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYour what, baby?\u201d Vivienne\u2019s voice was sweet like candy as she bent down to Luna\u2019s height.<\/p>\n
\u201cMy mommy! You\u2019re so pretty and you play music and\u2014\u201d<\/p>\n
Mommy? Her words felt like cold water thrown at my face. I couldn\u2019t breathe for a second.<\/p>\n
My own daughter was calling someone else Mommy, as if it were the most natural thing in he world. And Darius? He just stood there.<\/p>\n
I bit my lip so hard I tasted blood.<\/p>\n
Everyone started clapping, but I felt like I was drowning. Luna hugged Vivienne\u2019s neck tight, and that woman pulled my daughter closer. She whispered something that made Luna laugh.<\/p>\n
My feet moved on their own. I walked into their little group and everyone got quiet.<\/p>\n
\u201cOh\u2026Vivienne,\u201d I said, my gaze flicking between her and the others.\u201cI wasn\u2019t expecting you here\u2026I mean\u2026\u201d It was my birthday and I hadn\u2019t invited her.<\/p>\n
I wasn\u2019t stupid enough to invite my husband\u2019s ex-girlfriend to my birthday after already spending the past few months watching my husband follow her around as though they were stuck by glue. I just wanted today to be mine. My birthday wish was that Darius and Luna only focus on me today.<\/p>\n
The three of us hadn\u2019t had a proper sit-down meal since Vivienne came back because she always had an emergency and needed help.<\/p>\n
At least for today I thought, Darius and Luna would finally show me love again, remember that I exist, look me in the eyes and remember\u2026<\/p>\n
Darius stood up straight, his expression darkened as he met my eyes, his green orbs boring into mine.<\/p>\n
\u201cI asked her to come, Sera. Don\u2019t do this,\u201d His words were so natural, sounding like I was being unreasonable.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m not doing anything.\u201d I hated how my voice trembled, how I could feel the back of my eyes prickling with the makings of tears. I said bitterly. \u201cI just thought for once, this party would be about us, about me,\u201d I met his eyes, intimidating as they were, I had to look at him.<\/p>\n
I know he\u2019s never had great affection for me, not when he was forced to marry me, definitely not. But at least he had consideration, for my feelings, for me.<\/p>\n
Now with Vivienne?<\/p>\n
\u201cVivienne is dying. She only has a year left. All she wanted was to play music one more time.\u201d He shook his head, looking like he was getting pissed.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy do you always have to be like this?\u201d He ran his fingers through his hair, jaw and fists clench tight as he held my gaze with a silent warning.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou know Vivienne is just a friend,\u201d He sighed, relaxing slightly as his eyes darted around the room.<\/p>\n
\u201cNow isn\u2019t the time, Sera.\u201d He added firmly and as always, dismissing my feelings as though it were nothing because of her.<\/p>\n
The disapproval in his eyes had me taking a step back, my cheeks began burning with embarrassment as I felt the eyes on me, the guests, Vivienne\u2026all judging.<\/p>\n
Five years ago, Vivienne had broken up with Darius to pursue her music dream and Darius was forced to marry me by his grandfather, despite not wanting to.<\/p>\n
But now she\u2019s back. Surprisingly, with a terminal illness that left her with only one year to live. Her last wish is for Darius to be by her side to the end. And Darius ate it all up, he forgot everything at the drop of a hat and he\u2019s been stuck to her like glue.<\/p>\n
I could never figure out why my husband thought it was appropriate to accompany his ex during the last time of her life as if he owed her the whole world.<\/p>\n
But then again, it was my fault. If I hadn\u2019t appeared in his life, Darius would\u2019ve been able to go after Vivienne, they would\u2019ve been together and I\u2026<\/p>\n
Darius kept emphasising that Vivienne was just a friend to him now but seeing how he looks at her everyday, it\u2019s hard to believe his words.<\/p>\n
The guests all stopped talking. I could feel them staring at me, probably seeing me as a troublesome and jealous wife.<\/p>\n
Luna pulled on Vivienne\u2019s dress, looking back and forth between us with big green eyes\u2014just like her dad\u2019s. \u201cMama Sera, are you jealous because you can\u2019t play piano? Vivienne could teach you too!\u201d<\/p>\n
Mama Sera. When did she start calling me that? When did I become second place even to my own daughter?<\/p>\n
\u201cLuna, sweetie, come here.\u201d I got down on my knees and opened my arms, hoping she\u2019d run to me just once. \u201cCould you go upstairs with your nanny while mommy and daddy talk?\u201d<\/p>\n
But Vivienne\u2019s hand went to Luna\u2019s shoulder, holding her back. \u201cActually, Luna and I were talking about the toy room. Right, little star?\u201d<\/p>\n
My daughter nodded fast, and something inside me broke.<\/p>\n
Vivienne must think me to be a fool, she already has my husband, does she think I\u2019ll standby and let her take my daughter too?<\/p>\n
I stood up and took a step closer. \u201cShe\u2019s my daughter.\u201d<\/p>\n
The slap came from nowhere.<\/p>\n
Luna\u2019s little hand hit my wrist. It stung and shocked me. I stared down at her, this tiny person I grew inside me, fed in the middle of the night, loved more than my own life.<\/p>\n
\u201cLuna\u2026\u201d I gasped, heart clenching almost painfully as I looked down at my daughter in shock.<\/p>\n
She just hit me.<\/p>\n
She\u2019s never hit me before.<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t want you!\u201d Luna\u2019s face got all red and tears ran down her cheeks. \u201cI want Vivienne! You\u2019re mean and scary and I hate you!\u201d She cried, tears suddenly streaming down her cheeks.<\/p>\n
Everything went quiet. My ears began to ring, incessantly.<\/p>\n
Hate.<\/p>\n
My four-year-old daughter hated me.<\/p>\n
\u201cSera!\u201d Darius\u2019s voice was as sharp as daggers, he quickly made his way to our wailing daughter, reaching for her.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy did you make her cry?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI didn\u2019t\u2026\u201d I could not find the right words, my mind still reeling from the shock of what had just happened.<\/p>\n
She hates me because of Vivienne.<\/p>\n
She hate me.<\/p>\n
\u201cLuna\u2026\u201d I reached for her again, to console her but this time, Darius blocked her from my view.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m her mother!\u201d My voice trembled.<\/p>\n
\u201cThen act like one!\u201d He snapped, his words made me freeze, almost knocking the air from my lungs.<\/p>\n
He picked up Luna and she hid her face in his neck, still crying. \u201cVivienne, why don\u2019t you take Luna to the toy room? I need to talk to my wife.\u201d<\/p>\n
Wife. He said it like it was a burden.<\/p>\n
Vivienne nodded and took Luna from his arms like she\u2019d done it a million times. \u201cCome on, little star. Let\u2019s go make music together,\u201d She cooked, patting Luna\u2019s back softly and whispering words I couldn\u2019t hear into her ears.<\/p>\n
They walked up the stairs to my daughter\u2019s room while I stood there feeling like I was dying inside. The guests started talking again, pretending and acting like they didn\u2019t just watch me fall apart.<\/p>\n
Darius grabbed my arm hard enough to hurt. \u201cBathroom. Now.\u201d<\/p>\n
I pulled away from him. My skin burned where he touched me. \u201cDon\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDon\u2019t what? Don\u2019t try to stop you from making this worse?\u201d He asked, eyes narrowed with impatience.<\/p>\n
I couldn\u2019t take it, that look.<\/p>\n
I already knew he didn\u2019t care about me, but to this extent?<\/p>\n
Does he really think I made my daughter cry on purpose?<\/p>\n
I ran away from him, pushing through the bathroom door and slamming it shut. I turned on the water as loud as it would go, hoping it would hide the sound of me crumbling to pieces.<\/p>\n
In the mirror, I saw a stranger. Sad brown eyes dripping with mascara, pale face, empty. When did I become this person? When did I start disappearing in my own life?<\/p>\n
My body shook as the tears came. They were silent but they hurt so bad. Each suppressed sob felt like it was ripping me apart inside.<\/p>\n
\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u00a0<\/p>\n
Twenty-nine years old. A ghost in my own house.<\/p>\n
\u00a0<\/p>\n
I didn\u2019t know how long I cried.<\/p>\n
\u00a0<\/p>\n
Just then, I heard<\/p>\n
\u00a0<\/p>\n
Someone knocked on the door soft and careful.<\/p>\n
\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cSera?\u201d A voice called through the wood.<\/p>\n
\u00a0<\/p>\n
But it wasn\u2019t Darius.<\/p>\n
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