165 The thought of losing her\u00a0<\/p>\n
Leilani. O\u00a0<\/p>\n
If there\u2019s something I just realized, then it is the fact that the entire earth wasn\u2019t one big geoid surface where life grows like most scientists claim. It was simply one big baked bread; watery on some spots, dry on some other spots, and extremely burnt in\u00a0<\/p>\n
the rest.\u00a0<\/p>\n
And I was on the burnt part of the baked bread earth.\u00a0<\/p>\n
I could never believe that the first thing I asked when I finally came to was; \u201cWhere is Caelum?\u201d Not even the usual; \u201cWhere am I?\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
Because damn, on what planet does that even happen?\u00a0<\/p>\n
Since when did I become so stupid that I would worry about my tormentor?\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u2018Since he jumped in to take a bullet for my sake.\u2019 A voice whispered in my head, but I immediately shook it off. 3\u00a0<\/p>\n
Jarek, who was looking disheveled and tired, sighed in relief when he heard me speak. His warm fingers brushed over my face carefully as he drawled; \u201cHe\u2019s in the ICU, Leilani, and we\u2019re all hoping that he gets better.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
Since when?\u00a0<\/p>\n
Since when do we all care about Caelum\u2019s wellbeing? When did we start to care if he gets better or not?\u00a0<\/p>\n
And why\u2026 why does that news make me feel relieved in a way?\u00a0<\/p>\n
I snapped out of my reverie when Jarek\u2019s fingers lowered to carefully graze against my chin, so careful that he made it seem as if he was afraid of really touching me. His usually sexy slant eyes were hollow and dark as he gazed affectionately at me, and then he whispered; \u201cI\u2019m so sorry.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy?\u201d I couldn\u2019t help but ask,\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause it\u2019s all my fault.\u201d He replied coldly.\u00a0<\/p>\n
A part of me wanted to pull him into a hug and whisper reassuring words to him, but I was too weak to do that. My limbs felt like they were on fire, and it felt as though the silver in my blood had finally waited until this moment to begin to show its effectiveness.\u00a0<\/p>\n
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Pain lanced through me from every angle. It was so horrible that tears pricked at the corners of my eyes. I shivered slightly when his hands trailed down to my neck. And then after a moment of awkward silence, I finally had the strength to say; \u201cIt wasn\u2019t your fault.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cIt was\u2026\u201d he argued, causing me to shake my head despite my terrible headache searing through my skull. \u201cI underestimated Keisha so much. I let her get cocky until she was cocky enough to try to hurt you. And that is my fault.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
Due to how dry my throat was, I didn\u2019t want to speak too much; And when I tried to sit up, my entire body protested. I winced. \u201cWhat happened to me?\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cYou tried to shift.\u201d He hissed through gritted teeth.\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd I didn\u2019t?\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cThankfully, you didn\u2019t because that would\u2019ve been a disaster.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
His words made me frown slightly and I lifted my head to look at him; and I don\u2019t know why, but I was slightly mad at his comment. It sounded as though all he cared about was how dangerous it would\u2019ve been for others to see my silver fur, blissfully ignorant of the fact that I\u2019d acted purely on emotions.\u00a0<\/p>\n
-Emotions that I would never have felt if his obsessive ex hadn\u2019t decided to kidnap me in the first place.\u00a0<\/p>\n
I opened my mouth to say something cutting but before the words could slip through, he drawled; \u201cIf you had shifted with that amount of silver and wolfsbane in your body, it would\u2019ve weakened your wolf so much\u2026 Jesus, I don\u2019t want to think about what would\u2019ve happened.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
I froze.\u00a0<\/p>\n
My swollen tongue felt glued to the roof of my mouth as I realized to mortification that once again, he wasn\u2019t being selfish.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Goddess, could Jarek ever be selfish?\u00a0<\/p>\n
my\u00a0<\/p>\n
utmost\u00a0<\/p>\n
I smiled softly at him, closing my eyes as I dragged in a lungful of his rich masculine scent. His hand caressing my face suddenly stopped and I opened my eyes to meet his now stormy gaze.\u00a0<\/p>\n
I frowned; \u201cWhat is it?\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cI have to leave.\u201d He answered, his voice still gentle, despite the way his eyes had\u00a0<\/p>\n
darkened so much.\u00a0<\/p>\n
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165 The thought of losing her\u00a0<\/p>\n
Again, I tried to sit up but stopped when an intense pain sliced through my midriff. I winced, blinking away the tears in my eyes and asked; \u201cWhere are you going to? Are you okay?\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
At my words, he flashed me a small smile but I couldn\u2019t help but notice how it didn\u2019t reach his eyes. He drawled; \u201cI have a business or two to attend to\u2026 with Keisha.\u201d (2\u00a0<\/p>\n
Something in his tone told me what the so-called business was and my heart began to\u00a0<\/p>\n
from my race in my chest. I tried to grab his arm but missed when he stepped away bed, his smile still soft but something in his aura had shifted.\u00a0<\/p>\n
He gritted out; \u201cShe hurt you, Leilani. What she did was unacceptable and would\u2019ve cost you so much if the triplets didn\u2019t appear when they did; and I need to correct that. I need her to know her boundaries. To understand what it means to lay a hand on the woman after my heart.\u201d 3\u00a0<\/p>\n
He leaned in to plant a kiss on my forehead but before I could react, he stormed out of the room, leaving me reeling in shock, and wondering what he meant by the words:\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cThe woman after my heart.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
Goddess, I knew he loved me. I knew that he\u2019s always made his intentions clear, and\u00a0<\/p>\n
that he wants to pursue me.\u00a0<\/p>\n
But hearing him say words like that\u2026 listening to him refer to me with words so endearing, made my heart flutter in my chest\u00a0<\/p>\n
I waited until he was out of earshot before I slapped my hands on my face, ignoring the pain that sent flooding into my ribs and squealed excitedly.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Oh heavens, I hate how childish he makes me act!\u00a0<\/p>\n
*\u00a0<\/p>\n
What she never knew was that, Jay never left mmediately he walked out of the hospital room. He\u2019d walked out of the room, yes, but he had leaned against the door, whilst trying and failing to calm his racing heart.\u00a0<\/p>\n
He covered his face in his hands and sighed tiredly, but when he was about to walk away, he vaguely heard Leilani\u2019s excited squeal and a sure small smile spread across his face,\u00a0<\/p>\n
He didn\u2019t want to, but he couldn\u2019t help but peep into her room and his smile widened when he saw the smile playing across her lips as she pressed her fingers to the spot he\u2019d kissed on her forehead.\u00a0<\/p>\n
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And then, something stuck out to him. It finally occurred to him that this was the same\u00a0<\/p>\n
girl Keisha had tried to hurt.\u00a0<\/p>\n
His Leilani.\u00a0<\/p>\n
His smile instantly wiped off his face and he walked away from her door whilst pressing his phone to his ear.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Orion picked on the second ring, his voice gruff as he asked; \u201cWhat is it, Alpha?\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cInject the prisoner with more silver. I\u2019d like to have a word with her in a few minutes.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
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Creation is hard, cheer me up! VOTE for me!\u00a0<\/p>\n
Ahvahh_\u00a0<\/p>\n
Creator\u2019s Thoughts\u00a0<\/p>\n
166 Trust me, baby girl.\u00a0<\/p>\n
166 Trust me, baby girl.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Kael.\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019ll take some time but he\u2019ll be fine.\u201d The female doctor, Ava, whose eyes never left Zevran\u2019s face even for a single moment, said again and I nodded, even though I wasn\u2019t quite convinced.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Merely looking at Caelum\u2019s pale face made my chest hurt in ways I couldn\u2019t even begin to explain. The corners of my eyes stung with tears and my limbs trembled when I tried to move.\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cKael, you look quite unwell. I think you should go home.\u201d Zevran\u2019s voice seeped into my ears but I couldn\u2019t bring myself to respond.\u00a0<\/p>\n
I simply nodded but I didn\u2019t move.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Because I felt sad. I felt like shit. And I felt filthy. Filthy because even though my brother was in a critical condition right now, a part of me was still glad that Leilani\u00a0<\/p>\n
wasn\u2019t the one shot.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Filthy because even if we were to relive that moment for a second time, I\u2019d still prefer if I was the one hurt, and not her.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Obsessed much? Maybe.\u00a0<\/p>\n
I looked up at that exact moment to find Zevran leaning against the wall. His hands were balled into tight fists and his jaw was set into a hard line. His eyes met mine, catching me staring; But he didn\u2019t flinch. If anything, he squared his shoulders, looked me dead in the eyes and drawled;\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cI need to know who that Keisha girl is.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd here I am more concerned with the reason she\u2019s after Leilani\u2026 and the fact that\u00a0<\/p>\n
Leilani almost shifted right in front of us.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
At the memory, I shuddered slightly, vaguely remembering the weird aura I\u2019d felt from her and the way it had sent ripples of strange electric energy coursing through my body.\u00a0<\/p>\n
And I am an Alpha. A full blooded one. I\u2019d met other Alphas too and had witnessed them shifting, but none of their auras compared to what I\u2019d felt from Leilani earlier.\u00a0<\/p>\n
It wasn\u2019t even close\u2026\u00a0<\/p>\n
Zevran seemed to think about it too because then he snapped his lips together. His\u00a0<\/p>\n
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166 Trust me, baby girl.\u00a0<\/p>\n
eyes darkened with an emotion I could barely name, and then he muttered; \u201cThat too.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cWhich of the \u2018thats\u201d?\u201d I snapped impatiently as I began to pace around the room. \u201cAre you bothered about what the Keisha girl wants with Leilani or the fact that she nearly shifted?\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cBoth.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
I stopped then and turned around to face him, my nostrils flaring in rage; But surprisingly, I didn\u2019t know why I was mad. I didn\u2019t know why I felt this tight feeling in my chest, and why I wanted to throw caution into the wind and go pull Leilani into a hug right now.\u00a0<\/p>\n
I was snapped out of these conflicting thoughts when Zevran pressed his hand against my shoulder, as if noticing my inner turmoil. He muttered; \u201cKael?\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cHuh?\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re sweating\u2026 profusely.\u201d He said slowly, and when I still wouldn\u2019t respond, he added; \u201cI promise to find out why that girl decided to kidnap and hurt Leilani.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd we should also find ways to protect her from the shadows\u2026 in case of another attack like this one.\u201d I answered, and when he looked at me strangely, I added; \u201cShe\u00a0<\/p>\n
doesn\u2019t have to know.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cOkay.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cOkay.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
I patted him gently and walked out of the room with the excuse that I needed some air, but after walking for a few seconds, I realized to my utmost bewilderment that I was unconsciously walking towards Leilani\u2019s ward\u00a0<\/p>\n
And goddess, I knew that I shouldn\u2019t do this. I knew that it was against the law especially since, you know, the restraining order; But I couldn\u2019t help myself. My legs wouldn\u2019t stop moving until I arrived right in front of her door and peeked inside.\u00a0<\/p>\n
When I looked in, I let out a sigh of relief when I found her sleeping peacefully. My hands hovered over the door\u2019s handle\u2026 and Jesus, this was the part where I was supposed to turn around and leave.\u00a0<\/p>\n
This was the part where my curiosity should be sated and probably diffuse.\u00a0<\/p>\n
But I wanted to see more. I wanted to perceive her scent. To see her face more closely. Goddess, I wanted to know if she was fine.\u00a0<\/p>\n
So for this reason, I slowly pushed the door open and stepped inside, careful not to\u00a0<\/p>\n
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166 Trust me, baby girl.\u00a0<\/p>\n
wake her up. I tiptoed close to her bed and my breath caught when my eyes landed on her smooth face.\u00a0<\/p>\n
And heavens, she is beautiful!\u00a0<\/p>\n
Her hair spread out behind her head like a vell and her lashes, long and full, fanned over her cheeks, making her face look more fragile\u2026 more mysterious\u2026 as if that was even possible.\u00a0<\/p>\n
I wanted to pull her into my chest; to protect her from the evils of this world- even though I was no better than the monsters I intended to protect her from.\u00a0<\/p>\n
My fingers subconsciously grazed against her hair, and I twirled a few strands between my fingers before whispering; \u201cI wanted to be sure that you\u2019re fine.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
No\u00a0<\/p>\n
response. Just silence, and the sounds of her soft snores.\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m sorry we didn\u2019t come earlier than we did and that we weren\u2019t there when you needed us the most. I\u2019m sorry for all the times I hurt you in the past. And I promise that by the time you\u2019re ready and willing to talk to me\u2026 to us\u2026 I\u2019ll tell you about everything and why we treated you badly in the first place. I\u2019ll also tell you about the video and about-\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
I stopped talking when she suddenly tossed in her sleep and I scooted backwards immediately, retracting my hand quickly as if afraid that she would murder me if she woke up to find my hand in her hair.\u00a0<\/p>\n
But she didn\u2019t murder me. She didn\u2019t even wake up.\u00a0<\/p>\n
I couldn\u2019t risk touching her anymore so I stood away from her and watched her sleep instead, my heart beating like a wild beast at the mere thought of being this close to her.\u00a0<\/p>\n
A few minutes passed and soon I began to feel tired so I quickly scribbled down a note that read;\u00a0<\/p>\n
I\u2019ll be praying for your recovery.\u00a0<\/p>\n
And after placing it on her bedside table, I then quickly slipped out of her room, only to halt my steps when I ran into Zevran.\u00a0<\/p>\n
But he wasn\u2019t alone.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Chalice was behind him.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Her eyes met mine, and she cocked her eyebrows in confusion before she turned to Zevran and asked; \u201cIs that Caelum\u2019s room?\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n
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