IS IT DESPERATION OR LOVE Novel Chapter 12

That man literally called me a wh*re. That’s where I draw the line. I’m done chasing after him. I’m literally leaving him alone. I have to pull myself together. The pots won’t start themselves.

I placed my bag in my room and started with the pots, I made rice and a tin-fish mixed with baked beans… My favorite. I called Nothando.

Nothando : sweety

Naomi : are you home?

Nothcozando : duhh, where else would I be?

Naomi : I miss you

Nothando : I miss you too. it’s been a while since we chatted, unless it’s about school. How about a sleep over? Will your mom agree?

Naomi : I think so,I’ll call her because she’s still not here.

Nothando : okay get back to me ke.

Naomi : okay…(door opens)oh she’s here. I’ll call you back.

Saronah : and then? Did you miss me?

Naomi : I did but it’s not that. How are you?

Saronah : I’m okay hunny what about you?

Naomi : I’m okay. Can I go sleep over at Nothando’s house?

Saronah : OH, I thought we’d bond tonight, it’s been a while.

Naomi : I know but we have to, study. We have exams to study for having her as my studying partner really helps.

Saronah : Okay, you can go.

Naomi : are you sure?

Saronah : I am sure. I don’t want to stop you from focusing on your studies. It’s a good thing. Nothando is a good girl, I know she wouldn’t take you to clubs so yeah. You can go.

Naomi : thank you. Let me. Go pack my overnight bag.

Saronah :are you okay though?

Naomi : I am, why?

Saronah : you were crying.

Naomi : I wasn’t, I was watching some videos on Facebook, I laughed until tears came out.

I smiled.

Saronah : okay. You can go. Should I take you there?

Naomi :there’s no need Ma. It’s right next door.

Saronah : okay, you better get going before it gets too late.

I took my phone from the kitchen counter and sent Nothando a text. I made my way to my room and packed a bag and made my way out.

Nothando’s gate is not locked, so I made my way inside. I knocked once and the door is opened almost immediately.

Nothando : you’re here. Let me take these.

She said taking the bags from me.

Nothando : I’ve already told my mother about this sleepover. She’s preparing for work and I hate being all alone, that’s whshe agreed. Let’s go to my room.

We made our way to her room. She already has setted up a little picnic for us. Her laptop screen has a movie on pause.

Nothando : are you okay?

She asked after dropping my bags on the bed.

Naomi : he called me a lose woman.

I whispered, tears forming on my eyes. She pulled me in for a hug.

Naomi : I love him but that hurts. I’ve never been touched by a man before. Not even once. For him to call me that while I’ve never slept with anyone is just painful. It hurts. But I’m done with him, I really am. From now on, I’m going to keep my distance.

Nothando : he thinks you’re desperate for love, for a relationship. Ukujwayela kabi.

Naomi : do I look desperate?

Nothando : no you don’t. You’ve caught feelings for real. There’s no desperation here. You’re in love. It doesn’t matter though because the man you’re in love with doesn’t give a sh¡to about your feelings. Let go of him.

My phone rings. Unknown number? What if it’s him, again?

I answered though.

Naomi : Naomi speaking hello?

Caller : it’s me,Qhawe. I’ve been trying to call you, are you okay? Did you get home safe?

Naomi : I’ve blocked you. Leave me alone. Stop acting like you care.

I dropped the call and threw my phone on the bed.

Nothando : that was him?

Naomi : yeah.

Nothando : he has a nice voice. It’s sad that he uses it to blurt out sh¡t. Come to momma.

She said opening her arms for a hug.

Nothando : I have prepared a movie night for us. We deserve a little break, just this once.

Naomi : What movie are we going to watch?

Nothando : I don’t know, choose one while I go dish up for us. I’ll be back in a minute okay.

Naomi : okay

She leaves me in there. My phone rings once again. Still the same number. I dropped the call and blocked them. I have exams to focus on, I can’t let this distract me. I should’ve have let this distract me. Not even once. So I’m done, I’m really done with Mr Q.

TBC