LUXOLO

I get done washing the dishes and I go and  sit next to my mother on the mattress, I heave a deep sigh and lie my head on her lap, and she brushes my hair.

“What’s wrong ntombi”?

“It’s nothing mama”.

Her: “It can’t be nothing. There is something troubling you, I am your mother Luxolo and I know you”. I chuckle.

Me: “I was thinking of going and look for a job so that I can be able to help with paying rent, and to buy myself toiletries”.

Her: “Why? I still have my UI-19 money, and it provides us with everything we need”.

Me: “I know mama, but it won’t last us for too long. Your medication is costly, we have to pay rent and buy groceries it’s too much mama. What if it runs out in the long run, what then”?

Her: “I guess you’re right. Where do you want work”?

Me: “Anywhere. I mean even with my qualifications I don’t get a job, even if I can work in retail or restaurant it’s fine as long as I’ll be bringing in money you’ve been supporting me all my life, now it’s time I look out for myself”.

Her: “That’s a start and I hope one day you’ll get your dream job”. I smile. I was studying electrical engineering, and I was about to register for studying Diesel mechanic in a different college though, that’s when Muzi stripped us everything of which resulted me into dropping out of college, and on top of that my mother became sick.

Me: “God shall answer my prayers one of these days”. My phone rings, I check the screen and it’s Sanele. I look at my mother, and she nods for me to answer it, she doesn’t like Sanele, and she doesn’t even pretend when he’s around and thus led Sanele to stop coming to my house, we were meeting secretly. I stand up and go to answer it outside…

“Hello”.

“Hello yamasimba. What took you so long to answer my call”?

Me: “I was busy nursing my mother”.

Him: “Really now? You took your time to answer my call because of your mother”? I softly laugh and shake my head. This guy is unbelievable right now.

Me: “What are you implying exactly Sanele”?

Him: “Who is important between me and your mother”? I laugh. Now he is bullshitting me!

Me: “Are you really asking me that bullshit Sanele? Unbelievable”!

Him: “I am. Does this sound like a joke to you”?

Me: “You are a joke and for your information my mother is more important than you”!

Him: “Is that how you thank me, after everything I’ve done for you”?

Me: “Everything you’ve done for me? What did you do for me wena Sanele? You did nothing for me don’t you dare start something you can’t finish”!

Him: “I’m not surprised by your behaviour that’s how whores thank someone who has battered some low life’s life, I was feeding you wena syoyo. You’re one ungrateful cold bitch”! I chuckle.

Me: “If you don’t have anything sensible to say, I think it’s best you hang up in fact let me save you time. While at it, Fuck you and your small dick”! I hang up. How dare he? Who does he think he is? Yerrr, this piece of shit!

He tries calling again but I just look at it letting it to ring alone, once upon a time me and Sanele we were madly in love. Things started to change when he came back from his Durban vacation with his colleagues. He became someone else overnight we’ve been together for 6 years, and from where I’m standing we won’t even celebrate our 7th anniversary, we are too disconnected. I walk back inside the house and I find my mother already sleeping, I join her and drift into land of thoughts… I am 28 years, but I haven’t achieved anything in life, I don’t even have a pet, yet my age mates are flourishing out there, they are living their best life while I still ask airtime from my mother whereas I was fucked almost every day. Sanele never gave me money to buy toiletries that time I was doing 360 angles, and giving it to him however way he wanted whenever he wanted, but fakhashit never appreciated my efforts, mxm. So, basically I was being nyoba’d for free, and no I’m not selling, but he should’ve spoiled me once or twice in a month as his girlfriend, and I’ve never asked him for money. That should count for something right? Exactly. Mara Sanele? Yi waste of a man…

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CINDY

“You sound stressed what’s up”? That’s my older sister asking me. I called her because I needed someone to talk to. I can’t really call my friends because they will not even entertain me, and besides they are not married hence they don’t want me talking about my marital affairs when with them, they are all about ‘living free, and not being tied to a man’.

Me: “Vuyo is stressing me”? Heaving a sigh.

Her: “Not again. What did he do now”? I can hear the annoyance in her voice it is not to be missed. “I told you that I don’t like him, he is bad news. He is causing you stress again”?

Me: “I did not call you to lecture me, I just wanted to talk to my sister but it seems like I am wasting my time”.

Her: “Argh, I knew that you were going to act somehow once I mention that monster’s name. And you clearly wasted your time”. I huff.

Me: “Greet the family for me”.

Her: “Right”. She hangs up, I sigh.

I never have a good conversation without Nonhlanhla mentioning Vuyo’s name, Yes, he was abusive and a serial cheater few years back, but he has changed. He is no longer the old Vuyo they know, but my family wants nothing to do with him. I was once hospitalized for 3 days due to his beatings and ever since then, he changed I love him he is my husband… I don’t know how many times my family told me to stay away from him because he is bad news, they don’t understand that it’s not that simple even if I want to leave him I can’t this guy has a very serious hold over me that can lend me in jail. Should my family find out about it, I am as good as dead my father won’t even think twice about putting a bullet on my brain. Just then my phone rings, I look at the screen Sanele’s name flashes across the screen. I roll my eyes I am not in the mood to talk to him, let me ignore him he will eventually hang up. I walk to the wine cabinet and take out red wine and I drink straight from the bottle. Just then a message comes through

I take my phone and read it. 

“You better bring your ass here if you know what’s good for you. Wear that sexy lingerie that will be delivered to your doorstep” it reads.

I chuckle, this guy must be fucken kidding me! Who does he think he is? My doorbell rings I go and attend to it. It was a courier guy, he hands me the box after signing the damn paper. I close the door after him and place the box on top of the table, I open it and it was Bella Ville lingerie! Laughing. I’ve never worn a lingerie before and this piece here already makes me feel like I’m naked, I cringe at that thought.

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VUYO

I am at the office when my friends Nathi, Thabiso and Bonga throws themselves in my office without knocking, these guys never knock. They greet and make themselves comfortable on my couches.

“You do know that I fuck and masturbate on that couch right”?

“Damn you Vuyo maarn, yasis”! Bonga jumps up, the others laugh.

Thabiso: “So what? Sex is sex we all do it”.

Me: “You’re annoying. Why are you guys here”? Tilting my head.

Nathi: “Do we need to have a reason to come and visit you? We are your friends”.

Bonga: “And friends visit each other unexpectedly”.

Me: “That’s new considering the fact that all of you never visit me unless I ask you to”. They chortle.

Thabiso: “We know and that’s why we decided to come and visit you”. I pick up the phone, and call Amber to come to my office.

Nathi: “Amber my sweet Amber”.

Me: “Dude, I’ve already tapped that”.

Them: “Yohhh”.

Bonga: “You’re going to get sick boy. We will be visiting you at the hospital with Mageu & bananas”. We all laugh… Amber makes her way through, she is white by the way.

“You called for me sir”, she says as soon as she steps inside the office fixing her glasses.

Me: “Yes. Can you please bring my friends something to drink”.

Her: “What would the gentlemen like to drink”?

Thabiso: “I would like to have you”. The other 2 fools laugh, Thabiso is too much.

Her: “I’m not available sir”.

Thabiso: “Then avail yourself for me my pretty white thing”.

Nathi: “I would like to have Whiskey”.

Bonga: “Sparkle water will do for me”. She looks at Thabiso.

Thabiso: “Since you not available why don’t you give me your numbers, maybe I might take you out tonight”.

Nathi: “So ufuna ukudla lakudle khona u Vuyo? Sies, ungcolile wena”. (You want to chow where Vuyo has already chowed? You are rotten) Bonga chuckles.

Him: “Limhlope njer” (but it’s white)

Me: “You so dumb. That would be all Amber thank you”. She walks out of my office, and we all burst out with laughter.

Me: “What was that all about? You guys are fools, especially you Thabiso”.

Nathi: “And that’s why we are your friends”/ We all laugh… I don’t know why did God give me such friends, they are just stupid but I still love them.

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CINDY

I ring the doorbell twice, and he opens for me, he is shirtless it seems as if like he was exercising. I am focusing on his sweaty abs when he pulls me inside the house and smash his lips unto mine I close the door with my heel, and he picks me up and place me on top of the kitchen counter. I hug his waist with my legs pulling him towards me, and we continue kissing I am now turned on, I don’t want to lie. He unties my jacket and my cleavage is out in the open, he tears my bra allowing my boobs to fall free… He then sucks on one of them while caressing the other with his free hand, and I let out slight moan, he kisses me from my belly button while his other hand is playing with my bubbles. All I want now was for him to be deep inside me. He lifts my legs shifting the lace thong aside, it’s my first time wearing one, and it’s not comfortable. He teases my nunu with the tip of his tongue, I am super wet now he plays with my clitoris using his tongue and I feel a strong sensation overcoming me, he then goes’ H.A.M on my haven. I am on another cloud. Vuyo never did these things to me, it is all so foreign to me but it feels good. I am on a verge of cuming when his doorbell rings. He continues licking me ignoring whoever is ringing his doorbell. “San… Sanele I’m cu…” I did not even finish my sentence when his door falls down. Men in black clothes carrying big guns make their entrance, and they look scary making me to shake.

“So this is what you specialize in, huh”? One of the men asks me I don’t even know him. I am so scared I think I’m going to pee on myself. Sanele stands here unfazed by their  presence, in fact he is chilled about it. “You little bitch leave at this instant”! He roars. I freeze, and the next thing I hear gunshots. I close my eyes and cover them with my hands, thinking that they’ve shot someone, The shooting dies down I don’t even dare open them.

“I’ll call you, leave”. Sanele tells me removing my hands from my eyes. I open my eyes and not say anything, I search for my bag on the floor, I pick it up and about to go out when another man stops me shaking his head…

“Does your husband know that you are fucking around with young boys”? His question takes me by surprise. My heart freezes, my palms are starting to sweat, and he looks so serious. I can’t bring myself to answer him, I am shocked to say the least.

Me: “Why… Who are you and how do you know my husband”? I ask him with my lips quivering.

Him: “Don’t mind about who I am. Worry yourself about your husband finding out”. He winks at me, and goes to join the others in the lounge. I can’t hold it any longer, I pee on myself… I run out of the house half naked as I am, and go to my car. This is not happening, I fumble with my bag looking for my car keys, my hands are not steady, I find them, opening the door with trembling hands it’s hard I manage to open it, I step inside bringing the engine to life, and drive off while wiping my tears, I’m in deep shit. Should Vuyo find out I am as good as dead, how did I get here? I drive around not knowing where to go. I messed up big time, and I have myself to blame.