BAYANDA
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BAYANDA
Feeling his arms wrapped around me feels so overwhelming but in a good way. He keeps holding me tighter, at this point. My heart is beating out of my chest—my breathing pattern has changed, so many mixed feelings are circulating the inside of my body.
He takes me off the counter and I wrap my legs around his waist. He just picked me up like I’m just a feather, his hands grab my butt cheeks and I start fading away—going to a world that I don’t recognize. He’s walking somewhere, where is he going? I don’t want him to stop but I also don’t want him to go far. The reason is very much known. He lays me ontop of the counter and gets ontop of me, still kissing me—this time, he’s increasing the pace.
“Katlego..” I whisper, breathing heavily. He pulls out of the kiss and glances at me—his eyes are red, how is he so good looking?
“I’m still sealed..” I say, he doesn’t seem shocked—Sipho was the shocked one when I told him that I’m still a virgin. Katlego’s reaction is the total opposite of his reactions.
“Who are you saving yourself for?” He asks me, I shrug. I don’t even know who my virginity belongs to. Maybe whoever I get married to? I really don’t know.
“I don’t know..” I say, he plants a kiss on my lips and buries himself in my neck—he’s in the same position and he’s making me very weak. He’s not doing anything, he is just breathing down my neck.
“You’re getting me in trouble..” He says, planting a kiss on my neck—I’m shrinking in this couch. My heart is still pounding fast.
“What are we doing Katlego?” I ask him, I’ve never heard of best friends that kiss and do these things. Why are we doing them?
“I answered your question..” He says, he’s not being too loud or too silent. His tone is driving me crazy.
“I don’t understand..” I say, he gets off me and my eyes move to the front of his pants. I immediately look away, I made him like that?
“Goodnight..” He says, I get up and take a deep breath. I feel so lightheaded, I must be losing my mind.
“I said, goodnight..” He says, I’m even avoiding his eyes at this point. I don’t know what the hell we just did but it has made me feel incredibly shy.
“Goodnight..” I say, attempting to walk to the guest room—I should return to my house soon, things will happen here. He stands infront of me and I look down.
“Sleep well..” He says, I can feel his eyes on me. I raise my head willingly and glance at him.
“You too.” I say, he leans over and before I know it—he’s kissing me again, my own body is giving up on me. My knees are weakening, I balance myself with his chest, responding to the kiss.
He pulls out of the kiss, a part of me didn’t want him to break the kiss but I’m being too crazy.
“Can I sleep with you tonight? I’m scared of the dark.” He says, I roll my eyes and nod. He’s not even afraid of the dark, he’s being silly. He smashes his lips onto mine and picks me up, again? I wrap my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist—he’s walking off, I suppose to the guest bedroom.
I’m not in this world with all of you, I’m in another world. A world that Katlego has taken me to. He just pushed the door open, I guess with his leg. He places me on the bed and I breathe heavily. What is happening to me? I can’t even think properly straight.
“You get in bed, I’m going to change.” He says, I nod and watch him walk out. I heave a sigh and open the covers, my body is still shaking. I don’t know what this feeling is but it’s making me crazy. I feel like a fool right now, I can’t even think properly.
After a few minutes of him being out, he comes back changed into his pajamas. I’m already in bed, I should’ve fallen asleep because I’m going to be too shy to even look at him.
He confidently gets in bed, this is his place so I can’t even protest against anything or maybe I also want this. He faces my side and I frown.
“You’re supposed to face that side.” I say, he chuckles and pulls me closer to him.
“I don’t want to.” He says, brushing my cheek. I’m looking at him in the eyes, I see my best friend and something else. What’s that thing?
“Have I ever told you you’re beautiful? without even trying.” He says, I sigh.
“Yes, you have told me.” I say, his eyes are sparkly—I don’t know if it’s tears or what.
“Let’s sleep..” He says, I nod—I didn’t want to nod, I don’t know what else I’m expecting. I should stop drifting to that world, come back to reality Bayanda.
I find myself leaning over and kissing him, slowly but so passionately. He just responded to the kiss in seconds, he didn’t even waste anytime. I place my hand on his cheek and slowly kiss him, his hand is brushing my back.
I don’t even like breaking this kiss, I could go on and on until tomorrow or even the day after tomorrow. I place my leg ontop of him, the kiss is deepening. The feeling is coming back again, what is my best friend doing to me?
I slowly pull out of the kiss and glance at him—he suddenly looks sleepy, when can I go back to my house? I’m losing my mind here.
“Goodnight..” He says planting a kiss on my lips and switching off the side lamp. I heave a sigh and close my eyes, I just noticed—I didn’t move back from him, we’re still in the same position.
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I don’t know how I woke up after him this morning but he has already woken up. My shift is at 12pm so I’m gonna go to Umhlanga and have breakfast with Aunt Thandeka. I need to tell her about what has been going on.
I’ve already taken a shower, I’m in no mood to dress up and look fancy. I’ll just be casual for the day, I feel tired enough already. I just brushed my edges now, I’ve been so hesitant to go to the kitchen because he’s in there but I can’t hide in here forever. I walk out while fixing the dress I’m wearing, he made breakfast? it smells so good in here.
“I thought you’d never come out..” He says, I stop on my tracks. He’s shirtless with an apron on, why are my knees weakening now? dammit Bayanda.
“Why?” I ask him, he shrugs.
“Maybe there’s something you’re scared of, even though there’s nothing to be afraid of. There’s literally no monster in this apartment.” He says, I nod lightly—I don’t even hear what he’s saying.
“What are you making?” I ask him, I hope it’s not eggs. I don’t like eggs anymore, I don’t know why.
“Sit, I’ll tell you as I am dishing up.” He says, I sit on the high chair and he pushes a mug towards me.
“Have some hot chocolate.” He says. I thank him and drink the hot chocolate—I glance at him, he’s so focused on whatever he’s doing. I think he’s making waffles, it looks like it.
“How’s everyone? I mean, your aunt and uncle—where’s that sister of yours, what’s her name?” He asks, I sigh.
“My aunt and uncle are doing well, they’ve been doing well. They stay in Umhlanga now. I managed to get them a house that side, Phindile is.. still Phindile, nothing has changed. She has two kids now and she still stays with her parents, that being my aunt and uncle.” I say, he chuckles and shakes his head.
“I don’t want to judge anyone, you don’t know the struggles they’ve went through only to end up where you’ve began.” He says, he’s right—the only difference here is that Phindile was given limitless chances to succeed in life and she just threw them far away.
“Yeah, I mean.. she still treats me like trash even though I literally send her money every month so she can take care of her kids. She never thanks me, she never appreciates me but that’s okay. I’m doing this out of the goodness of my heart, her parents took me in after my parents passed away.” I say, heaving a sigh. He nods.
“You have a great heart.” He says, I should be the one saying that to him.
“Can you finish up now? I’m starving, I’m about to faint because of hunger.” I say, touching my chest dramatically. He stares at me for a few seconds before nodding.
“Are you leaving today? your house is fine now.” He says, sounding like he doesn’t even want me to leave.
“Why wouldn’t I leave? I mean, I need to go back and change everything that Sipho knows about my house. I also can’t be a guest in your apartment forever. What if your girlfriend comes and finds me here? I don’t want to be slapped, I’d cry.” I say, he glances at me with a serious facial expression. Did I say anything wrong perhaps?
“You’re not being funny, which girlfriend are you talking about?” He says focusing on the stove, I sigh a bit.
“Sorry..” I say, he nods and continues with the waffles. I’m not going to lie, they look good already.
“Can you stay until the end of the week? I like having you around.” He says, I glance at him—why does it feel like I’m about to say yes? because I want to say yes, duh!
“Sure.. I’ll just get more clothes from my house then.” I say, he walks to the sink. I’m pretty sure he’s hiding a smile or a blush.
“Let me tidy up for you. You can dish up in the meantime.” I say getting up, he’s about to shake his head but I raise my eyebrow.
“I’m not taking no for an answer.” I say, he sighs and nods. He moves aside and I start tidying up the whole space.
By the time I’m done, he’s also done dishing up. Having waffles and ice cream isn’t too bad for breakfast hey? it’s actually not. I sit down and he serves me my plate.
“Thank you.” I say, there are small packs of toppings on the side.
“I don’t know if you’d want sprinkles, chocolate flakes or the syrup. Help yourself.” He says, I can see that he made breakfast for me but where is his own?
“Aren’t you having breakfast with me?” I ask him.
“I made the waffles for you, I wouldn’t really have that for breakfast and you know that.” He says, he doesn’t really have a sweet tooth.
“Mhh, okay.” I say, taking a bite of the ice cream. He’s making something else for himself, something that looks 100% healthy and blend.
“That doesn’t look very good..” I say, he chuckles.
“Because it’s meant for gym freaks.” He says, I shake my head. Even if I start working out, I would never deprive myself of good food.
He sits down after pouring some almond milk into whatever he just made. I’m almost done eating, the waffles are so good.
“What time will you be back?” He asks me, I shrug.
“It’s gonna be in the evening though, there’s a lot to do at the hospital.” I say, he nods.
“I get to drive you anywhere you want and then after work, you can catch an uber to your place and get your clothes or maybe, I can pick you up and we can go to your house together.” He says, I like the second option better. I don’t feel like spending my money today.
“The second option is way better.” I say, it honestly is. I finish eating and get up from the high chair. I walk to the sink and wash the plate along with the mug that I was having the hot chocolate in.
“You’re not even ready and I have to go to Charlie’s coffee shop now.” I say, he glances at me.
“I showered already, I just need to change. Wait, give me 10 minutes. But first …” He says, walking to me. I kinda know what’s happening next, I’m not shaking and I’m not even scared. He wraps his hands around my waist pulling me towards him.
“See why I have to leave?” I ask him, he shakes his head.
“I don’t see why..” He says, planting a kiss on my lips. I place my hands on his chest, staring deep in his eyes. Oh, this man has a ‘men face card’.
To be continued..